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(no subject) [Jan. 7th, 2006|12:04 pm]
Cara and Sara
i want to help Joey...

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(no subject) [Dec. 15th, 2005|07:00 pm]
Cara and Sara
[Current Mood |angryangry]

It's been a while since I've updated on here. I figure, while I have a chance I should do so. Life is complicated at the moment. The boy is being difficult. I came out. I don't want to be out. I feel sick. I hope we're not pregnant again. Probably not. I hate comming out mostly in anger. It is so quick to burn but lasts a while.
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(no subject) [Aug. 23rd, 2005|05:36 pm]
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It has been an interesting day. Well, an interesting couple of days at least. Our new roommate, Sean, has decided that he likes talking to me about the problems Jessie is having. And he even prefers me to be out and about when there is some difficulty.
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(no subject) [Jul. 28th, 2005|12:40 am]
Cara and Sara
[Current Mood |crankycranky]

Ok...so I'm sitting here trying to find something interesting on TV and this guy keeps on trying to talk to me on Jessie's IM. I don't know if he knows about me so I'm trying to pretend to be her but he is so fucking annoying. I mean, the guy keeps on asking questions about sex and if I've had sex and whatnot. Fucking idiot. Probably some perv who is such a loser he has to live vicariously through others. Now he's talking about some chick. Fuck I don't want to talk to this guy. But for whatever reason Jessie is friends with him and I really don't want to hear it if I fuck up her relationship with him.

Well, aside from this bull shit I've set up trillian. I mean, I wanted to log onto messenger as myself but couldn't because of this freak. So, now I can talk to him and be logged in as myself. Not that it matters. I have no life. It's not like I can just go out and meet people my own age or something.

Ooops, I think I might have said the wrong thing. I mean, I really don't want to hear about who he's having sex with lately. I don't care! He's some man who lives in another country! Why the hell would I or anyone else with a pulse care if he got laid. And so, I told him so. Now he's logging off because I won't talk about fucking with him. What a prick.

I seriously don't understand some people. I mean why does everyone have to be so preoccupied with sex. I don't care! There's nothing good about it anyway. I mean, sure it looks fun. But really, there IS more to life. And if you can't see that then I don't want any part of you. Plain and simple.

Well, I have to go now. There are dishes to do (I'm NOT doing them) and sleep to be had. We have to be up in 5 hours. Maybe I'll just go to bed and someone can do the dishes in the morning.
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(no subject) [Jul. 18th, 2005|08:27 pm]
Cara and Sara
I feel as if I can't connect with anyone. I've considered going around the internet to find others my own age. Only problem is I can't. How would I hang out with them? I'm a 16 year old trapped in a 27 year old's body. I have a husband and two children. Granted, I don't think of him as my husband or my kids. But, still, I feel as if I can't have a life because of all of it. I know I'm not the only one. I know that life isn't fair. I know that I can't always get what I want. But, I hope that some day I can.

Listen to me. I sound like a broken record. Jessie says that maybe I can study anthroplogy soon. That'll be fun. We're going to try and get some college. I can study anthropology or sociology. Yaro is going to try for Japanese. Uoko wants to do something with mathamatics. Jessie wants some art. Melinda wants some religious studies. Melissa wants some psychology. and I think that's it. We all want something and maybe we can all get it. We may have to split up who gets what when. But, we can at least study what we want.

I think I'll apply for the financial aid for us tomorrow. I always seem to be the one to kick start such things.

There, something for me to do. Happy now? Almost.
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(no subject) [Jul. 14th, 2005|09:10 pm]
Cara and Sara
i dont no what to rite. cara told me abot this jurnal. i feel werd riting abot this. i am just so sad and i no that i shuld talk to that lady person. but i dont want to. i am scard. can i go home now? i found our bear. i just want to cry. there is none to talk to here. the other kids are sleepin. i dont no what to rite so i am going to go now.
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(no subject) [Jul. 13th, 2005|09:52 pm]
Cara and Sara
[Current Mood |boredbored]

The child is watching some show...The Brave Little Toaster. There's one part of it where all the characters are in a junkyard and the junk are all singing this song, "worthless" and it is so depressing.
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(no subject) [Jul. 3rd, 2005|06:24 pm]
Cara and Sara
[Current Mood |annoyedannoyed]

The woman just brought her kid up here to appologize. But, instead he screamed and cried. I tried to tell her to nevermind and to please bring him back downstairs. But, she was insistent. I really don't want his applogy. He doesn't truly mean it so I don't want it. Why can't she see that. I was trying to calm myself and to get the baby to go back to sleep because his fucking screaming and crying woke her up. I tried to tell the woman to bring him back downstairs so I can get her to sleep. Instead he screamed and she kept him here until he gave his false appology. You would be proud of me, I bit my tongue. Even though his screams bothered me and Sara and even Jessie. I just sat here after asking her to take him away did nothing.

I think I'll go now. I don't know the words to the lullaby and the baby is cranky without it.
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(no subject) [Jul. 3rd, 2005|06:18 pm]
Cara and Sara
[Current Mood |pissed offpissed off]

I just wish that little shit will leave. I want him out of here now! He has pissed me off so much I can't stand it. I had to go upstairs to keep from just bashing his face in. I know, I shouldn't say such things. ooooh...it might offend someone. So fucking what. I hate walking on eggshells. He's a spoiled little shit and a week is too long. He'll be gone in a week and oh that'll be a day for fucking celebration.
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(no subject) [Jul. 3rd, 2005|09:27 am]
Cara and Sara
[Current Mood |irritatedirritated]

Sometimes I wish the boy would just shut up. I wish I could somehow silence him. He screams and screams and usually for no reason at all. Or he'll act like someone is tearing his head off when all that happened was he wasn't getting his way with a toy. It drives me insane. i can't do anything about it because if I do then I'll have to go away. I know this. The others have told me so on more than one occasion. But, I really don't like this boy. We're not his mom so I really don't get a say in anything having to do with him. He's just a little fucking brat. He's so annoying. I can't wait until he and his mom are gone. they cause nothing but stress and aggrivation. I want them gone now. I know, I have to wait until it's time. But, why does it have to take so long? I mean, doesn't he know that when he screams like that it bothers Sara really bad? She cringes and cries whenever he screams. Hell, we ALL cringe when he screams. I just want him gone. Now.
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