||[Jan. 18th, 2006|07:35 am]
Cara and Sara
I'm trying to write this before I go insane from these kids. Jessica will be out soon, but before she does I want to write about last night.
Last night totally sucked. Why? Because I came out at the completely wrong moment.
Tanya was making love to Frankie and the baby started making noises (she woke up). I know it was Tanya because of how annoyed she got. For some reason that annoyance triggered me. So, I come out and I find myself laying in bed, looking at the crib, with Frankie's penis in my hand! ME! I was so hummiliated and pissed. I quickly sat up and Frankie seemed a little upset by it all.
I hate sex. HATE IT. I hate being touched, even by the children. It just irks me so much. It was the wrong moment to come out...well it could've been worse I guess. They could've actually been DOING IT. But it still upset me. And to make matters worse, I was so upset that we couldn't switch. I sat there trying to trigger ANYONE who wanted to take my place but it didn't work.
OK...time to go take care of the baby. Time to not be me.